So, things are going slightly better again, upcoming deadlines have got me a bit on the stressy side, but other then that im doing fine

The "need" to draw has gone slightly down as well, probally because I'm working on website-designs, logo's and labels every day for 7 hours or so straight.. it tends to put you off to do anything besides laying around and playing online games, altough you know you shouldn't

I've decided to pick my pencils up again after I finished the deadline, so that I don't rush the job, I know I do it all the time, leaving me with a rahter bitter aftertaste after every single piece I "finish" aka as soon as its finished I want nothing more then trash it as soon as possible, lucky for me years of training not to do so are really paying of, so I just put them on my ungrowing this-is-crap-but-cant-throw-away-stack

enough blabbered back to the webdesign, its rather more pleasing then other times, I wonder why... maybe its the thought I dont have to code it after its finished that is making me much more positive about it

Love ya all!!
Jia

ughhh I wanna draw... I just CAN'T gahhhhawgehawh -frustrated- I don't know what it is, I want to just stand up and walk my lazy ass to my desk and draw something, anything...but when I do I go in my standbymode.... gosh I suck...-bricked-

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okay so I promised myself as all of you who cares enough that I would only work on 1 piece a time... I didnt break my promise.. but its darn hard not to get sidetracked >_<

I told myself.. okay.. when you have a piece of quality worthy paper, go make another traditional piece since you need the practice biatch D:...
so I searched my room, and found 1 clean A3 paper im guessing from the feel around 100-120 gram ( oh yeah all the hard work in the copy shop these years ago finally pad of )

So far its gonning rather well.. I need to find my sharpener again though.. my mom lend it.. she "loses" all the nice stuff around here.. it will not suprise me she finds it on her work or something, that happend to our remote control

well.. back to work, and then I'll leave to visit my grandmom.. she is turning 87 today,,,I dont want to think about the time I'll hit that age

well people until we meet again...

well, all the free time has gone again.. the weather stayed ans is still nice these days, it gives me so much energy just waking up to the sunlight instead of having to drag yourself out bed for another grey day.. ahhhh summer, I love it almost as much as Tea.. but we all know that loving something else more then Tea is close to imposible for me so I guess it will have a shared first spot .. or at least its on spot 1,5

other then that, I made a lot of works these days,, just none are finished -shot- sorry guys,. im just so airheaded.. I start something then start something new and make stacks of unfinshed works, then when I want to finish them i'm all like.. blehhh crappy looking hahha so I guess that means I just have to devote myself to 1 piece at a time and finishing it either quickly or forcing myself to finish before starting something new... yoshh i'll start working on that

love you all...

So yeah... my back-up cd is still lost.. I guess Ill find it when I wont look for it anymore so I gave up to find it.. always seems to work

Been free this past few days with all these holidays, ahh gotta love those, queensday, on wich we celebrite the birthday of the queen, then some christian holiday wich I don't know the name in english haha, and then ofcourse may 5th on wich we celbrite to be freed in second war... all those war movies bore me so much, I know its well... historical and educational and blah.. it just can't catch my attention for more then 10 min. So I just spend it by enjoying the weather, wich is turning more summery everyday, and catch up on some work...

I even made some time to draw some more, even,le gasp, tradtional this time..I hope to finish some of it one of these days so except some updates in a few days...

also the guy from my last dev.. the emoish one has made its comeback and is somehow ending up in all my useless doodles... maybe its trying to tell me something

anyways back to work and all that jazz, love ya all